The Last 30 days.. One Step Back – One Step Forward

The Last 30 days.. One Step Back – One Step Forward

It seems like so long ago that I crossed the border back into Canada.. And although the problems that I encountered have still not been ironed out, they do not seem as trivial now that new challenges have been added to the mix.

The trip to Saskatoon from California was a LONG drive, spending a total 50 hours in a truck over 4 days! Leaving Dorman at the airport in Seattle was SO hard, and the quick stopover in Vancouver to see my very dear girls was just long enough to realize how much I miss them!

My brother was my guardian angel driving nearly 24 hours straight through the mountains, a snowstorm, freezing rain and fog, and delivering me and Baby bee safely to the very cold climate of Saskatchewan. Over the 4 days I started at a balmy 35 degrees (yes celcius) to 15 below zero!

After arriving in Sask, I hit the ground with enthusiasm, connecting with 4 studios the same week. I started subbing the next week, which softened my sadness of missing Dorman.

A long way from where I want to be, but with all the challenges that keep piling up in our life that seem to walk us one step back.. i now see even the smallest step forward as a beautiful thing!

Teaching yoga has been a god-send. The community at my friends studio “One Yoga” is so sacred and I know Dorman and I will be able to call it home and create something beautiful with the family there. I was blessed to find some part time work for a few weeks that will supplement me for now but we are praying that God will use our talents in some miraculous way so we can pay for a roof over our heads and a place to Bring Bee into this world naturally.

My prenatal yoga classes start this weekend!! – a project I am so passionate about, I have a few regular classes each week and am planning some workshops over the summer.

Now to the most important thing in my life..
Baby Bee has been dancing up a storm, which I got to witness with my eyes during my ultrasound.. she was moving so much that the Dr. could not get a good picture of her – she just wouldn’t stay still – takes after her mom&dad

I have been feeling her acrobats and surf sessions nearly every day. The other night it looked like my belly was waves on the ocean.. And the most amazing was when I went to a yoga class with live drums and flute – I was laying down for a while and every time the drummer played louder, Bee’s dance moves would get stronger! I am so in awe of this little creation!

Dorman is loving Belize – I’m sure he’ll share more soon about his daily mango and other fresh fruit fare! And teaching yoga sessions on the beach!

We do miss each other SO much – especially when we are so used to sharing hours talking each day and now only have minutes (which are usually through fuzzy connections and cost us up to $1.50 per minute!!) And Skype apparently is banned from Belize so I haven’t been able to see his face in 3D for a month (I guess that would still be 2D.. but at least more alive than this picture)!

This time apart has made me question whether we made the right decision. Spending so many nights in tears just doesn’t seem right. My refuge is a few things – I sit and write and allow my thoughts to unfold, and take some time to meditate. I always come out on the other side knowing that Dorman and I are taking steps towards our dream.

It has taken a leap of faith, sacrifice and more challenges than I would like to take on while carrying our baby, but when I look forward 2 years from now and see all that we will accomplish, this one step forward to our dream feels so right!

Please give yourself a hug for me – I could use one

Love, peace, laughter and sunshine
Shantel and Bee